Indulgence

Through out this journey thus far, I've had small indulgences. Today was one of the largest and the aftermath on my body was totally noticeable! Let's go back a few steps. We were uber busy at work, I mean basically not stopping till our break time for lunch. I was low on H2O and nutrients from my juice. I just did what I used to, I'd push on through till I could get done. The aftermath of that, was scary for me. I was shaking, dizzy, thirsty to no end (who wouldn't be in 105 heat) and slightly confused. My body was just TIRED. I began to crave steak hard. I mean I haven't had this craving in a few days like this. I began to drink my juice and gagged. My mind was telling my body it wanted steak not some good for you juice made of kale etc. I forced it down and began to feel the effects about 10 minutes later. I was still shaky but my head was getting clearer. This is what happens when I wait too long. I get hit HARD with cravings for steak and things I really do not need. I had to start thinking about why I wanted steak so badly. Its been a fall back food (emofood) for me for the past few years. Simple as this, my body needed nutrients. I was depriving them b/c I didn't slow down to eat. My mind, who still hasn't figured out that my body is doing something different, reverted back to what I would normally go after; steak, bread, and creamed spinach. It normally takes me a good 30 minutes to come back to reality from the daydreaming of steak world and finish my juice.

Today I drank something seriously not on my juicing journey. My boss and his sweet wife brought us milkshakes with oreo's in them. It was the sweetest thing for them to do. I drank mine. It was soon after the above incident happened so I was weak. Its' added a lb back on the scale sadly. I really am trying to get rid of processed foods in my diet. That means getting over the eating of cheezits and combo's is going to be difficult. I have 2 packages in my car from the gas station when I went to buy the other item I plan on quitting later on in this journey (cigs). I'm still reaching for junk food and I need to figure out why so I have a game plan in place to combat that. I will say the milkshake was fecking awesome but man oh man did it do a number on my stomach. I felt like my stomach had a baseball stuck in it. I was burping milkshake and after the initial 30 minute sugar high crashed quick. I had a juice with me and that helped so did drinking a lot of water. I know understand how important it is to slowly come out of a juice fast (which mine has been sketchy at best).
Well enough for tonight. I need sleep. Been depriving myself of that lately.